Maybe it’s just me, but despite loving to write and focusing in mainly storytelling pathways I have a really hard time with blogging? It sounds a bit meta when I blog about blogging but it’s a topic that’s been on my mind recently.
I have a lot I want to talk about from this week like the Twilight Run or the Kick-o-thon or even my concert and how terrifying it was because I have the worst anxiety when it comes to performing, but when I write it down on paper- or in this case digital paper- every word I write down is nothing but gibberish? Maybe it’s because I set my standards too high for my writing or I’ve lost my touch with fluently storytelling, but something about the way I write blogs feels weird.
In my Creative Writing class at one point in the year, two upperclassmen came in to lecture us a bit about writing, and I specifically remember they pointed out that no matter what, you’re always going to learn to hate your work- especially if you specialize in storytelling. Well, they more like yelled and repeated it several times, but they made a point that really resonated with me. Mainly because it’s true, at least for me it is. As soon as I read something out or publish a blog, I always want to go back and “fix” it even though to you, it might have been completely fine.
But I’ve learned to accept ‘hating’ my work and it’s okay if I don’t like it. It doesn’t sound like the best statement and I should “learn to love what I write!!” and all that good stuff, but I think acceptance is also a good thing to allow yourself to do. Over the years, I’ve learned that you should love everything and be positive and as that’s great to learn, I forgotten that it’s okay to feel negatively towards some things sometimes and allow yourself to dislike things.
At this point I’m just rambling and maybe I’m the only one that really thinks this, but I feel like that’s important too.