Sorry I didn't post this right away. I hand write my blogs so I can think about what I'm going to say before it gets typed. Normally I do it the same day, but the week has been busy for me!
Today,I am not writing about a lesson or a workout. I am writing about a bad day with my emotions. I was starting to worry about my weight and my size again. I've done this before,usually for a day or so. Its frustrating that I can't fit into all of the clothes that other girls fit into. As hard as I work out, I would hope that I could wear anything!!!
It started after Wednesday's class. My moms were treating us to a trip to Dairy Queen.Something we don't do often,but my whole family enjoys. When we got there, I had just had a hard class and food after a hard class doesn't always work well with my stomach. So,as my family ate some ice cream, I had time to think,and not in a good way.
After a few minutes,my mom got a little worried because I guess I looked so down.While Patty and Sophia were finishing up their treats,we went outside to have a talk. I started by trying to tell her that I had a tough workout,though she didn't believe that was the whole issue. Then,before I could stop it,I broke and I felt my eyes starting to well up with tears. We spoke about eating and my size and my emotions.It was a good talk with my mom and once again,she helped me through a tough time. I told her I didn't want to have ice cream and I wanted to give up treats. She told me if I was going to do that, then so was she,so she could support me. After I felt better,which took a few minutes of talking,I decided I really did want a little treat,but healthier than a Blizzard. We brought Patty and Sophia home and we went to get me a little frozen yogurt with fresh blackberries and blueberries. It was a great treat. Mom said when we decide to get a treat,we will go get a little fro yo instead of ice cream.Better for all of us.
I'm going to continue to try to eat healthier. I also need to make sure I stay more positive about myself!
Stay positive team!
p.s. Since I wrote this,I had a full physical with my doctor. She said that I am very healthy,and that my percentages have always been the same,so shes not worried about my weight. I am built just like my mom was. "Solid". As I grow more,the belly that makes me so crazy from time to time will shrink and go away. I do know that under that belly is a nice rock hard set of ab muscles just waiting to be seen!